wedding or no?

The first weekend since the massive breakdown.

I laid down my T&Cs and he addressed to issues pertaining to smoking, intimacy, friends outings. 

The replies were collected and most of which I agreed to, without feeling to break my back. 

I do see the need to find more friends and recalibrate the boundaries of friends. It came to me that it could be from the impact left by Kang - if I'm too close to guy friends, it will jeopardize the relationship. And likewise for him with female friends. I was fencing too hard on this. 

First step, to go out with his/my group of friends. I don't know how comfortable I will be. 

'TBH I don't think we will break up'

The decision to break up does not fall entirely on him.

He seems to be confident that things would go back to norm as long as I changed my mentality. The onus is on me to change and accept. I am tired from going back-and-forth with the arguments to prove my point so I gave 'okay' to most of what he said. Is this gaslighting? The topic on boundaries with female friends left untouched, which I challenged if this was intentional. 

I am reflecting too, if he is worth the while for me to go through the pain; the occurrence of such episodes. For now, I feel the reluctance to go ahead with the wedding, am prepared to forgo the money.