Going 56kg

Lunar 13th. 2 more days to end of CNY. Boy, time passed so slowly. I’m doing ok. I do think of E from time to time, wondering if he’d think of me too. I’ll quickly brush away that thought and tell myself it’s not happening; he’s all happy now and it is best to maintain the equilibrium; how callous he was to walk out on me and ready embrace another.

Muay Thai keeps me occupied, so my thoughts don’t wonder too far off. It burns calories crazy, and my weight has been stable at 57kg for 2 weeks, despite the once/twice weekly pigging out with friends/family during the festivity (the Korean bbq with Wagyu and Souju with Syn was good!)

It went dipping into 56kg at the later part of the week. I’m excited to see how the numbers goes when I hit the class 3 times the coming week. My shoulder and arm muscles were so sore after 2 sessions but strangely the tight knots loosen up after I went for my run. My condition on that day was good, and I pushed myself to do 6km. It was surprisingly ‘doable’, especially on a night after Muay Thai.

Building muscles are imperative maintaining the fast calories burning rate, even when one is at rest. I’ll need protein, and looking through the list, I’d go for salmon, avocado, green vegetables. But lean not muscularly big, requires a great deal of balance. Abs by end of March was a target I set after I signed up for Muay Thai. I’ll miss 2 weeks of classes with the upcoming travels (and good food, WAGYU WAGYU, Takoballs), perhaps end Apr is a more realistic goal.

My colleagues and GE agent were telling me that I look ok, or good enough, that I should go easy or stop losing weight. I was hoping for 52kg, about 4-5kg more to shed and I’ll go into maintenance mode. I know I looked malnutrition, or skeletony once I go under 50kg.

It certainly feels good to fit in those ‘dream’ pants, shorts, dresses, shirt, once again. I’ll just have to keep it up. I’ll constantly remind myself that anyone who is capable of loving me, is myself. Never  allow another to treat me as though I don’t matter.