Eve of CNY piggy

Eve of Lunar New Year. I missed my sleep last night, despite drugged with fedac and melatonin. Spent most of my time thinking of E. Wondering if he goes to Pisces girl reunion dinner and if he brought Pisces girl home for dinner or visitings. I feel so soured. Still, nothing I can do except to distract myself from thinking about it. It worked temporarily but when my mind goes blank, it sinks in again, like a loop.

Had reunion dinner at my bro’s place. I was half thinking if E’s mom would ask me to go over for a later round, granted that she sees me as ‘half’ daughter. After all, Anchorvale and Rivervale is barely 10mins drive away which I can easily do. It didn’t happen though, probably Pisces girl is/has been there and I should not appear. 

The last login for his telegram was last Friday. I’m not sure if it was in the evening when he found out I was at his place. 

My bro is driving a Mazda 3. Monthly rental of $700 at the corporate rate from XX company affiliations. The freedom of traveling with a car is amazing. It’s a pride to be the first in the family to own a car, I’m proud of him.