14 FEB S.A.D Singles’ Awareness Day

My Singleton Valentines’ since 10 years ago.

I’m using the money I’ve saved up from date nights to pamper myself. Solo Japan trip, facials, Jaybird Tarah Pro (NU Force gave up on me, a month from the end of its warranty, and they did an exchange from a new set, which I’m selling off on Carousell).

I have to love myself, because no one else would.

I’m having lesser emotional outbursts. When it happens, I’ll walk myself to somewhere secluded and let myself cry out loud. Other times I’m feeling a combination of sour/sore/sorry/helpless when I think I’m all alone and he’s moving on happy with another.

Had a walk at MacRitchie during lunch time. The treetop walk and forest trial easily takes 1-4hours. I can only afford the time to walk around part of parameters of the Reservoir. A simple date between my waterbottle and me.

Evening spent getting my ass kicked at Muay Thai. The recoil hit the senior’s nose bridge and I felt so sorry. It was an intense session, jab, cross, hook, hook, upper cut, upper cut, shuffle back, South Pole, left kick, right jab (and step right), left leg hook, left kick (land near opponent), right vertical elbow. Clam bicep-tricep, step left, sweep right foot - using centrifugal to topple opponent to right and give  knee; left elbow, right elbow.

The skin at the base of my left big top peeled, ouch.

I feel sorry for myself. Being single and lonely while the whole world is lovey dovey, receiving roses. Coach Pal said, ‘don’t celebrate Valentines’ day just because the calendar says so’. It does makes sense lighten up things a bit.

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From the past, I’d have no issues sleeping when I’m traveling because I packed my itinerary full. I hope after Japan in Apr, I’ll be able to sleep well without any aids. Fingers crossed I can wean myself off Fedac and Melatonin. I could do blood donation then.