STOP IT

I have to stop looking at/for him. It only brings me anxiety and questions to where, why, what, how he is there.

STOP IT.

Fear swallows you and turns you into something you are not. Because you are fearful of losing, you grip tighter and tighter, so it wouldn’t weave through your fingers. And because of my competitive nature, I will not allow myself to lose. I’ll fight harder to hold onto what I have. It leads to a sad story where everyone loses. I wished for someone to understand and know how to manage me. At times, I’m so caught up with what I’m chasing, I’m losing myself.