19-05-15' lost

I have some free time in the weekdays now since I don't have anymore classes. Doing some make up sessions for work and spent the remaining of the time at home rolling on my bed. 

I'm starting to taste boredom and asking if I wanted this for life. I need a change but I'm afraid for the change. The thought of having a 9-5 for 5.5 days a week is dreadful, and I wonder if I can ever get back on the working life cycle again. I'm kind of stuck on what I should, or can do for a career. The ideal self and actual self is battling hard. This is likely why I'm so craving to travel. To take some time to think through. Making decisions in life isn't easy, particularly those that scalp your life.