09-08-13' Happy National Day and not so happy news

Happy National Day! Hurray to 48th years of independence. 

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I'm dreadful to log into Facebook. A detrimental effect described by US psychologist- when you begin to admire others more with their no less than perfect life. 

I wished I hadn't known that 2 of my classmates have joined the company, adding to a total 5 I'd known now. 

I'm biting into regrets. When Calvin asked me whether I had any regrets choosing studies over it, I told him yes, and I wiped my tears with his t-shirt sleeve. 

Many times when I don't have patients, I found myself asking, 'why am I here?', because it makes me feels like I'm wasting my life, waiting, waiting, waiting- when I could use this time to see the world. 

I was calculating when is a good time to attempt, but the school leaves no time allowance for me. I always thought I could be that Superwoman who can take on work, training, school and exam altogether. 

I haven't given up nor do I see myself giving up in the near future. As with any man is distress, one turns to religion for insights and comfort. Will my prayers be answered?