03-03-2011` Reluctance

I have 25 messages notices from facebook. 23 of them work-related. It's within a day.

No breather even after official working hours because a reply is expected.

Adhoc duties, replying enquiries is like being 'Auntie Em from the teenage forum' replying and addressing destressed teens. The job is not dedicated, because that would mean you have full control to judge what is appropriate. No, it is indicated, meaning I have to do it and later on tightly scrutinized and heavily amended that it's not my piece anymore. So why, are we doing double work when clearly, in your opinion, I am not up to your standard?

Its only till last week that I learnt we do not have the right to make diagnosis on behalf of doctors. This only looks ugly on the hygienist that we can only SEE what is there, why it could be there, what can be prevented and we're not supposed to say what can be done. We tell them outright that they have a problem but we are not allowed to tell them the solution, apparent to them as though we do not know the solution. Do you see the awkwardness?

What about the biomatrix fingerprint signing in? Huge cooperations used that to track employees signing in and out because they might not see each other by working at different levels. Isn't this overwhelming for a practice with <30 staff? I'd say its a matter of trust in fact. The machine and system will add to the overhead and cost more than paying for OT.

My half day leave is still pending. The numbers of days that we are entitled to but unable to utilize. Then ironically at the end of the year, telling us that they are paying too much for our leave encashment. Because either we don't get to spend or we use our time-offs instead from standing in for each other on your request.

I feel reluctant to go ahead with the massive changes. I feel reluctant to do what I have been doing. I feel reluctant to be awake that I intentionally overdosed myself with drowsy medications.

No doubt about it, depression is setting in.