01-05-2010` Grieving

Grieving for loss. It upsets me how sad my father was. To see the strong and respectable figure in the household to tear is simply unbearable.

Was in a turmoil. Everything collides and you're forced to make a decision, when you knew in your heart, you don't have alternatives because of your obligations.

Obligations as a granddaughter, daughter, girl-friend, friend, Hygienist, employee.

There's things I ought to do, and things I wanted to do. Conflict of interest, how?

I have to defer my trip. If spending extra $365 will settle the unease and fulfill my filial duties, yes it'd be well spent. Undeniably, my heart will ache when the bill comes.

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The ending of life brings another person into mine?