09-03-2010` Tears flow in clinic.

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This was my second episode crying in the clinic; my virgin tears was shed because of BGR and now, solely business.

My leave in May clashed, and I may not be granted leave. I had my air tickets and everything all booked. The December trip clashed because of mission trip and now, May because of exams. The pressure built up in me was too intense and hell broke loose. I felt so apologetic towards Lisa, because I'm making things difficult for her, AGAIN. As expected, a penalty charge will be imposed to change the date of flight.

The head nurse told me to go ahead with the travel plans. I'm having this mixed emotions.