03-03-2010` I am only a Therapist

An aquintance asked me, 'So which job you prefers?'.

I like the school for its simple mindedness. No politics. Work and go home. Go for meetings and gossips.

Here, I feel worn out. It seems like I was never good enough. I have been constantly reminded to generate profits. Personally, I am internally driven to produce good results, since young I have been trying to excel. Now, it feels like I'm in the last position in class.

Though unintentional, but it does hurt, 'You're only a Therapist'. The latter statement made was worst hence I decided to censored it off. I admired my courage to pull off a fake smile to melt the awkwardness.

I have been irresponsible and attributed the change in job, the shift work to my failed relationship. It had been a 'happily 8:00 - 5:30' job and everything was merry, and suddenly all came crushing down on me. I reckoned to have (or at least tried) to be supportive during the job rotation but the same understanding was not shown.

I guess I'm only trying to clear my guilt. F_cking irresponsible. ahh, finally the f word is out.