21-02-2010` Illusion

I have to learn to dessociate any possibilities from you. I will listen to you and let it go, because you told me so.

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Am I the me whom you've known? If you've seen me teared from laughing, not misery, then you've not seen the real me.

I yearn for companion but phobic of betrayal. The transcient barrier. I don't have the courage to put faith in relationship. Because subconsciously, it'd end up the same way.

I'm putting a false front to be proactive. Underneath that defence mechanism is the raw me who withdrawn from the war. I don't dare to go a step further. Stagnation of status at 'Friends'.

Look what you've done, you've made a fool of everyone.