26-11-09` Twilight buddy wanted

I need a Twilight movie buddy.

I have the tendency to cry in bus. So embarrassing.

I am always trying to be a goody goody; it was never my intention to coerce people. If you do feel suppressed, I'm sorry. I don't expect to live a life of luxury or extravaganza, I wish for close relationship to talk everything under the starry sky. A fairy tale for women, a tall tale for men.

There was an article writeup on a bride left stranded at the aisle with her runaway 'husband'. The man had cold feet and left. Instead of burrowing in tears and wasting the banquet, she turned around and invited elderly from a nursing home to the feast. Recollecting, I am pathetic, I will never have her courage.

Actions led to reactions. Every decision you made strings to consequences. We can never stand in other's position and say we 'understand', because truly, we don't.

I am disappointed in humanity. In dire straits, cross your fingers and hope for the best.

I'm afraid, very afraid. 2x 8 hours of flight, 3 hours of train, an hour of bus. Alone.

Maybe, I won't be going, a place so foreign all alone.