30-11-09` Its over, move on. :)

Its over.

From PQ!

26-11-09` Twilight buddy wanted

I need a Twilight movie buddy.

I have the tendency to cry in bus. So embarrassing.

I am always trying to be a goody goody; it was never my intention to coerce people. If you do feel suppressed, I'm sorry. I don't expect to live a life of luxury or extravaganza, I wish for close relationship to talk everything under the starry sky. A fairy tale for women, a tall tale for men.

There was an article writeup on a bride left stranded at the aisle with her runaway 'husband'. The man had cold feet and left. Instead of burrowing in tears and wasting the banquet, she turned around and invited elderly from a nursing home to the feast. Recollecting, I am pathetic, I will never have her courage.

Actions led to reactions. Every decision you made strings to consequences. We can never stand in other's position and say we 'understand', because truly, we don't.

I am disappointed in humanity. In dire straits, cross your fingers and hope for the best.

I'm afraid, very afraid. 2x 8 hours of flight, 3 hours of train, an hour of bus. Alone.

Maybe, I won't be going, a place so foreign all alone.

KITTYLAB

25-11-09` Drowsy

Had double dose of medicine for my flu. I'm suffering extreme drowsiness, my head is spinning.

24-11-09` Kindergarten talk at Cherie hearts

My DO gave a kindergarten talk in Cherie hearts childcare at Sengkang Sports and Recreation complex. Its a divine area away from the bustling city, not yet a suburb but along that line. The structure replicates the Australian with its brick-y architeture and McD drive through. There is a big pool with fun slides, resembles the big splash with a modern touch. Splendid place to chill out with your friends on a beautiful Sunday.

The nearest public transport is Farmway LRT station, the west loop from Sengkang. You wouldn't miss the building but you'll have to walk about 10 minutes on foot.

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Apparantly, it still hurts when the topic is approached. I figured the root cause is the mystery of how things changes. Till I came to light of the 'whys' or time would be the healing potion.

23-11-09` Adidas peach tree watch

I fancy the white actually. But black is nice too. If you're able to gather 5 person, it'd make an ideal present.

22-11-09` super bored

Super bored. Been refreshing the websites every other minute. Any recommendations for online movie other than pplive?

I'm happy when with friends. Unhappy when I'm alone. Its the emptiness; paralysis, a part of me has gone missing. Did you getcha what I mean? I just feel weird.

21-11-09` ROAR

GRRR. Hate the feeling of being taken lightly; the extreme of severing all ties. @&#^$(#@#@%

Meanie.

Basic courtsey to reply an sms. If you haven't, text your friend back now.

20-11-09` 600th post!

I have reached the 600th post today! Looking back, I'm amazed how much I've grown up (in terms of narrating, phrasing)! I'm so gonna force my children to write journals to log part of their growing up.

Have been rather free these days, as evident for my frequent postings. I'll only get busy when it comes to driving lessons. I need to be pushed. :(

18-11-09` ASM 09

Attended ASM. It was better than I thought.

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Kittylab next wednesday. Have to make my way to expo. Recollecting, I didn't have any experience in going to expo by myself. It will be the same way as the airport.

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I was amazed how people evaded popping questions regarding bgr. I am thankful for the understandings.

I have found the answer I'm seeking. Though it was disheartening, I can better prepare myself. Yup, :)

17-11-09` JP, still?

Yesterday, my company confirmed of the leaves I'll be taking in December. Call me sensitive, but I do feel the sympathy- they are wondering if the trip is called off and I'll cancel the leave and continue working.

Actually, I am uncertain as well. Am I able to cope if I were to be there alone? I have been to Sentosa and movies on my own but being in a foreign country is totally different. I wouldn't have mind if its TW or HK.

JP trip is the only connector between whats remains and I'm reluctant to let it go.

Silly, oh silly me.

He and She were in love. She met with an accident and had amnesia. She looked at him blankly. He was devasted.

Life goes on, new people were introduced into her life. She found another special him.

What would you do if you were him? Try to revoke her memories? Give your blessings?

And what if she remembers only after marrying the later guy and realised she missed the love of her life?

Tragic. I hope this never happen to any of us.

15-11-09` hope. pub,

Naive, I am. In whichever field it may be.

I wish I wasn't so sentimental. Why am I still holding on? Despite all odds, I'm still nursing that hope. Implusiveness get the better of me and I spun into actions. Memories are daunting. Inflicting wounds on myself.

Cannon in D, a love-hate piece of classical.

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6 pax, a bottle of Chivas and Vodka, 2 rounds of shots. Its sure fun seeing each other monkeying under the influence of liquor. The moment of a lifetime.

13-11-09` Friday the 13th.

It's the second day. It hasn't been easy on my part. Re-adjusting my lifestyle. From hencefore, I will have to pick myself up.

11-11-09` SHATTERED

I'm back to single.

Please do not ask if I'm okay because I am not. I can only say I've done my best but unable to meet up to his expectation. Time wears off patience, even for the most tolerant man. Please refrain from bringing the topic up becuase I'll get hurt. Please, smile and pretend nothing happens. I will be open when I get it over.

For the time being, please cheer me on. Smile and pretend nothing happens.

09-11-09` status?

Status is complicated.

My heart feels weak. I need shoulders to lean on. Please, no words but shoulders.

08-11-09` Please give me time.

Please minimize the impact. Please give me time.

Anything for you. I'm sorry, I was hoping for the golden balance.

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I'm attracted to iPod nano. It would make a good running buddy.

I hope to own a Macbook Pro by early 2010.

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I used to like drinking plain water lots. Bought 8 bottles of 1.5L at a shot. But I don't drink as much now. My bladder doesn't seem to function to its optimum. The water flushes through the GI system and sets me off to ladies. A bottle of 500ml can very well send me to toilet 4 times in an hour. Its antagonising.

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I work on Mondays, Tuesday evening, Thursdays, Saturdays.

That left me free with Wednesdays, Fridays and Sundays.

As much as it is complicated and seemingly impossible to remember. I guess everyone hopes to be the someone whom you think is worth to make the effort to remember. There goes my inferior complexity again.

08-11-09`

I feel lonely. Looking forward for meetups.

(-_-)"

06-11-09` One month more to JP

Finally, a month more to JP. It has been like forever, since I started planning the itinerary in June.

Hoping next trip would be in APR or MAY, and another in SEPT or OCT. The sharp intervals between the trips would mean a tighter budget so I'll have to ease on the end-of-year travel.

Being a worrywart for safety, there's a restriction to where I'd like to go.

For BKK, it feels totally foreign; unable to speak their lingo. I'll only feel secure with peeps with multiple travel experiences. I think I'll look, act and behave like a kuku in BKK.

Australia, hoping to cover 2 states, like Sydney and Gold Coast. It would be fab to drive around and for me, hunting down factory outlets where you can find big brands with the price of THISFASHION; if you're going for quality then you wouldn't mind it being off-season. Like the last time when we were at Melbourne, the heels from ALD0 is going at S$20, FCUK tees at S25! That very much dependent on luck for your finds, whether you can find a buy that appeals to you.

Taiwan is another place I'd looved to go! A shopping heaven! Being geographically near to JP, they carry in JP stuff- that stamped quanlity assurance. Remarkably I can catch their accent and blend into their culture! I was mistaken as a local by a sales assistant at a departmental store, she said I spoke like a native; she realised the difference only when I spoke to Fab in Singlish. haha.

I wish to travel more, before 2012 when all this could well possibly be impossible.

03-11-09` Cabin crew?

The issue is resolved. Lots of efforts in compromising.

Thanks for the girls talk, and the follow-up care. I can't express my gratitude and appreciation towards your concern. Thanks again, for being there. You've seen the worst of me. *blush

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Exhausted these days. I'm getting the lousy feeling from work. I was never good enough.

I propelled myself to search online for courses available at NUS. Sourcing out avenues to bring the better out of my life.

Singapore Air is recruiting cabin crew. After 4 months of comprehensive lessons, you graduate and earn $3500 with basic and incentives. Renumeration includes bonus and profit-divident bonus. You'll get a free flight to any location each year and privileges with flight bookings.

I read online upon the high income jobs that doesn't require degree, PhD. Top of the chart is Air Traffic Controller. The job scope includes monitoring flight location, basically staring at the dots on the radar. Great responsibilities of having hundreds of lives at your control. Yes, annual income is >$72,000.