20-09-09` Fab in Shanghai

Public holidays - the official off days.

Its a shame to say I have to squander it alone with Fab in China with his course. I am sure fortunate to have a PH fall on Aug and Sept since I've switched over to the private line.

I'm strapped up to my neck with my finances. It wouldn't be as bad if not for the Jp trip and I've been asking myself if its worthy to subject myself to such stresses. Fab asked me if I regretted, I told him no. But the truth is, I ain't sure myself.

I have been planning for the trip in every free time I have, before bedtime, during off-patients time in clinic. I'm a worrywart. The language barrier that sparks off the determination to reduce the possible hiccups. Yet I know such anticipation will lead to emptiness when the event is over.