17-08-09` Fab going Philippines again.

This is my 567th post in blogger. It would be nothing but an ordinary post about my life, or rather my rants in life.

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I'm trying ever so hard to steer out of trouble but end up falling into more pit holes. Things just get tricky on your fingers when you are anxious, yup, because you got more anxious and thus screwing things up.

I need to feel being appreciated. I'm finding the purpose of my existance.

I am anti-social to some, depending how you view it. I don't like to interact with big group(s) because I don't know when is my turn to talk and when to break the awkward silent. It takes a window period of 3 months before I open up to someone. So the verdict is, if you were to judge me within 3 months then I shall be deemed as aloof and anti-social.

I find the need to talk to people whom I'm comfortable with. Yes, you're in the checklist if you've received the 'mystery call' or 'romantic dinner' sometime back.

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Blockbuster Sept. Mentally exhausting. More adaptations, birthdays that calls for celebrations, intensive driving lessons, driving test all meshed up together in September.

With Fab in Philippines for this week, I find it difficult to pull it through. If I'm smiling, it means I'm trying hard to be happy and I deserve an applause.

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I want to shut my ears and carefully fade off to the back. I yearn for peace that resides within me.