28-08-09` Happy birthday ying

Happy Birthday Ying! I had wish her on the actual day but this goes out to her if she sees this.

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Day 3 since my lower braces in on. I went back to my orthodontist and sadly nothing else can be done. Its a transitional phase he said, thats why he was reluctant to start on the lower in the eariler time. As long as it breaks through the equilibrium, I'll be fine. What I can do now is eat less, avoid hard food and pray that my teeth are obedient and move fast.

I have been swallowing food without chewing because all the unconscious forces you use to munch, concentrate at one point and sets off like being hit by a hammer. Yes, its this painful.

I'll be developing gastric and intestinal problem before anything else.

My boss caught me brushing my teeth after lunch and guess what he said, 'you should do invisalign!' I very much wanted to if I could afford 8K for the treatment, haha.

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During my last driving lesson, my instructor asked me to stop at the road side, to buy his lunch. Shortly after he got off the car, a policecar stopped by, about 2 metres in front.

I was wondering whether is there anything I can do, in case the police were to issue us a summon, e.g. to drive off, to horn for attention. My instructor came back and the policecar moved off. According to him, he has gotten a summon and this meal is super expensive being $72.50.

I was guilty for not being to avert the situation but as a veteran, he knew it can't be helped. It would be worst off if I drove off without an instructor in car, my PDL would be revoke immediately.

Fabian said usually the police will be lenient; or they're just watching out to make sure I'm not driving alone.

26-08-09` lower braces

Im on lower braces now. It looks messy. :(

My occlusion is out. The posteriors aren't biting at all. The tip of the upper canines are biting on the lower canine brackets. Orthodontist said try putting it on, though there's an absolute chance of the brackets dropping off.

Its truly uncomfortable. I can only hope that the occlusion will change and able to bite with the back teeth.

Blogger went hay-wired, again. So, no pictures peeps.

24-08-09`

Just navigated from Facebook. Updates from friends stirred my heart.

People, colleagues, have similiar encounters, uncertainties, or a new start perhaps. To attain what you want, to be in a totally different environment. How much courage must one muster to make that leap. Whatever it may be, I am envious and awed.

I have been thinking, maybe I am not cut to do what I'm doing now. Working for the sake of working and not passion. Once I thought it was my passion, hell yes, 5 years back when I chose the diploma course. But now, I can't say for sure. It feels helpless because I have nothing to fall back on. While others have found their aims and working towards the direction, here I am, marching on the same spot and grumbling on my misfortune.

Enough said. Let me know what you think is a suitable career path for me. Really appreciate.

20-08-09` Fabian coming back tomorrow!

For my dental colleagues.



Sorry for making you guys bored with my grouses.

I know you all are a phone call away- It never fails to lift up my spirits after the small talks.

Lets start off with something light.

Fabian will be coming back from Philippines in 17 hours time. I have been racing my drama serials through since a few nights back till almost 2am. That explains why I couldn't sleep just yet.

I'm having driving lesson at 10 tomorrow morning. Intensive lessons would be lining up soon. I'm supposed to start on more lessons this week but its really wearing me out, and so I didn't make any extra bookings.

If I didn't make it through the test (which would probably be so), I will tell myself that I'm not ready for the roads and its a good sign for me to practice more before endangering my life as well as many innocent others. Though most likely I'll curse and swear at everything that went wrong for the next one hour. So if I forgot that beautiful excuse I've weaved for myself, please remind me again.

17-08-09` Fab going Philippines again.

This is my 567th post in blogger. It would be nothing but an ordinary post about my life, or rather my rants in life.

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I'm trying ever so hard to steer out of trouble but end up falling into more pit holes. Things just get tricky on your fingers when you are anxious, yup, because you got more anxious and thus screwing things up.

I need to feel being appreciated. I'm finding the purpose of my existance.

I am anti-social to some, depending how you view it. I don't like to interact with big group(s) because I don't know when is my turn to talk and when to break the awkward silent. It takes a window period of 3 months before I open up to someone. So the verdict is, if you were to judge me within 3 months then I shall be deemed as aloof and anti-social.

I find the need to talk to people whom I'm comfortable with. Yes, you're in the checklist if you've received the 'mystery call' or 'romantic dinner' sometime back.

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Blockbuster Sept. Mentally exhausting. More adaptations, birthdays that calls for celebrations, intensive driving lessons, driving test all meshed up together in September.

With Fab in Philippines for this week, I find it difficult to pull it through. If I'm smiling, it means I'm trying hard to be happy and I deserve an applause.

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I want to shut my ears and carefully fade off to the back. I yearn for peace that resides within me.

13-08-09` I'm sorry. This is delicated to you.

I'm sorry for not being supportive enough. Knowing that this is, and probably would be, the greatest misfortune we're facing. You've sailed through my bad times yet I've done nothing in reciprocate.

"I'll hold the sky for you even if it falls, yup, just for you. Whatever life might be, we'll be facing it together."

11-08-09`

What the hell.

07-08-09` NDP public holidays

Its taking a toll on me. They are having too much expectations. I'm not allowed to make any boo-hoos. Why can't they be more understanding as my prior colleagues?

I will give myself up till December to decide. Period.

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The NDP PH has proved to be passing too fast. Not able to achieve anything accomplishing. :(

Was surprised by the low human traffic in town. All thanks to the attraction of the fireworks.

Finally I owned a Fred Perry. I've lusted over it or the longest time. Being the last piece leave me with no choice but to part with the money.

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Blogger is down with the utility bar missing- this means I can't post pictures up. Well, till next time.

05-08-09` Crying baby

I'm being such a baby. A part of me don't want to grow up, facing the brutal of life- aging, cycle of life. It is too much for me to bear; suffocating.

I don't want to be 23, I don't want to face the fact I have to work for the rest of my life for a living. Despite my strong belief in earning your own penny, its the dreadful thought that the old good school days are long gone. Fab made me realised that I cannot go back to school no matter how much I wanted to. Life sail through ike Secondary school. Even if I take the same path, wear the same uniform but it'd not go back the same way and it'd never be. Its gone, far gone.

After the whole weeping and conselling session, the last thing I wanted to do is to waste his sleeping time (to less than 6 hours) and this doesn't make me feel any better.

I hate myself for being such a weakling. I hate my brave front. I hate myself for having suicidal thoughts. I hate the me I am.

My biological clock has gone haywired. I woke up before daybreak and have to consiously sleep through, mostly deceiving myself that I am sleeping but for the fact that I'm merely lying on the bed wasting my time off.

I am living in the world of sleeping-eating-working cycle. Whats life more than that? I don't know, seriously. Yes, finding a hobby or a passion. How many people in a million can find their calling? Or are they, like me, losing their purpose in life; hauled into the exact cycle?

I am sorry for being a pessimist. I looked up at the grey sky, it seems to mutter montonously 'Hello, you've made it through another day'.

04-08-09` Still alot of getting used-to.

Its day 3 and still alot of getting used to.

Aren't unable to say happy or unhappy. =/

I've been hit by nail. I've tasted the liberation. Which weighs more is yet able to tell.