02-04-08` bian wisom op

bian had all his wisdom extracted. 4 excisions to be precise.

he look so fragil for the first time on the hospital bed.

"he did this becos of me?"

never in his life would he wants to visit the dentist, moreover, to undergo a surgery thats deem 'unecessary'. his mom did persuaded him to go during his ns days but he pushed it off with all kinds of reasons u can gather in the universe.

phobia. fear of knowing your own ill health, risks, critised by the dentist for not taking care of your own teeth.

i understand this point thats why i don't scold my patients. i tell them their situation, corresponding solutions and leave them for action. what happens next is none of my business. yeps, seriously none of my business. but this 'take it or leave it' approach may be deemed as 'hack care'.

so now after the massive invasion and resurrectioning, the tissues around swells up. bian is taking it lightly as a mockery as kenna boxed by someone else.

i wonder what is the psychological processes thats going through his mind. that is far too much for one to bear. at least not for me.
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i failed my basic theory. i have not been a good girl and have not been studying. bian surgery then course the next morning followed by the basic theory. i still have to clear the big CLINICAL AUDIT next monday. the mental pressure is too much to bare with taking care of bian my priority. i gave up and flinged my books away 30 minutes before the test starts.

was disappointed with myself for not being able to cope. and worst of all, the next test date is 3 months away, again.

i slept my head off in his car while he's driving. felt definately better when i woke up.

i did not regret for the choice i made. yea, just retake, whats the big problem? haha.

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blogged too much, i must be looney! and i will be edgy (GOAR!) towards the kids as i am depriving my sleep now.