31-03-08` caged

cursed with a 2 years 'deed'.

set me free.

possible to one to fall terribly ill to understand herself more?

ironic but it might work for me.

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how should i say?

the future was painted perfectly yet i feel vague. a mirage?

i stop my steps and ask myself.

will your future merge with mine?

30-03-08` bian op

bian is having his wisdom tooth op this tues.

worry.

at the back of my mind, i did have that tinge of 1% regret for nagging him to go for the op. after going through GP, polyclinic, awaiting for surgery and on endo waiting list, all these dont come easy.

its gonna be tough for him, a food lover to watch his diet. practically no food that requires chewing.

sigh.

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depression?

hmms..

21-03-08` tww 21st b'day!

tww, this lucky birthday girl had her 21st birthday falls on the 21st march 2008 and on a good friday.

yeps, this post is dedicated to hky, whom i promised to upload her 'faces' into blog. the singles and availables, do look out for this cutie pie!


our main lead!


SEXY! (after much struggling and haggling with her, she finally pose for us!)

card by the MOs. very pretty!

thats us, the extras for the day. :)

only managed to find one of your face in my cam, but okay la hor, satisfied hky? LOL

26-03-08` whites to reds

all my white clothings are in shades of pink. why? my mom.

the damage extent? from my GAP white (now pink) long sleeve to the white (now pink also) collar of my uniform.

my favorite billabong white (grrs, pink?) shorts is not spared.

yes, i like pink but i LOVE white. i need to learn to wash my own cloths. *tsk tsk tsk. finally this lazy grown up have to learn to do her own laundry.

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wondered if u have any true friends around?

i'm pretty sure this question hovers in many, and yes this question did strike me. especially when i am down or need a company. i find that i can barely reach to any. of cos, based on account that my bossom friends can be counted with a hand.

they are either, busy studying in established local universities, busy working with tight schedules. like stars, so near yet so far.

then i start asking myself if i am worthy to be their best friend. if i have done anything to make deserve being their soul mate.

so please, if u are draught by this question, ask yourself back.

everyone needs friends around becos when love is gone, they are the shoulders for you to lean on.

do not be a miser, may it be concern or monetary terms. the more illegitimate gains u wish to keep, the more u will lose in people's relations. do not take advantage of others based on her goodwill. its a karma cycle, believe it or not.

i love bian and i love my friends too.

23-03-08` RT

i'm feeling negative.

work work and more work. there might be reshuffling and some getting used to.

i am 90% sure i will leave after the 2 years bond ended.

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physically tired but can't get into sleep. angry with myself for wasting such a golden chance to nap in the afternoon.

"what am i doing? what do i need to do?"

my sky is grey but it would have been black without bian around.

bian is starting his RT. i can't go against the government so i will have to see him less often.

07-03-08` - 09-03-08` bintan trip

this is on the bintan trip!

starting off. we missed our ferry because we are not able to rush to tanah merah ferry terminal on time (me and my aldo warehouse sale; bian and his blur blur directions). we waited 3 hours for the next ferry and trust me on that, its not an easy wait when there is nothing but little shops for the travellers to pick some last minute sanitary items.

we stayed at Angsana resort and spa, which is an associate of Banyan tree. the door lock gave us a hell of problem. we can't do much but request to change to another room.

we had grilled bbq buffet by the hotel beach. 2 thumbs up for the ambience, 1 thumb for the food.

'live' singing by the beach!

we had a back body massage at the spa. the service is excellent, absolutely a luxury.

massage massage!

the next morning we went to pasar oleh oleh (market place), direct factory outlet (my favorite!).

pasar oleh oleh. where u can find tons of lv, gucci bags which the authenicity remains unknown. haha.

factory outlet, the bundung d.f.o. is a place for branded bargain buys. u can find brands like tommy hilgfier, abercrombie, bebe, hugo, blah blahs.

we went to the elephant park for elephant show and rides. awesome experience with riding an elephant! i can feel 1/2 of my butt slipping off its body as it moves. and and the hairs on its flipping ears tickles my knees!

elephants arent as dock nut as they seems to be. they are wonderfully trained - all its poses are on a command by its trainer. its amazing yet i cant helped but feel a tinge of sadness in an elephant's life.

the elephant poo-ed. a rare shot!

had dinner at kelong. super duper fresh seafood wiped up!

we had ATV, thats All Terin Vehicle. the first time i get to feel how izzit like driving w/o even having PDL!

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A side note, all the charges are in SGD or USD, or don't bother changing the currencies. we are the goon-dos who didnt know that and end up losing more becos of the exchange rate. opps, a lesson learnt!

20-03-08` inf ctrl, doc audits

after panicking for 2 weeks, 2/3 of my audits are over. *phew! (for the moment, though the major nerve wrecking challenge is yet to come!)

didn't score a 100% for both, oh well...

at least i passed?

i made a blunder and corrected it after my auditor kindly taught me what is right. my auditor commented, "i could have fail you on that but i will let you pass this time."

i was thinking, she is really being very kind! ha.

and because i file one paper in wrong order, i got a 'no' for that section. *grrs..

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enough of work and nonsense, i'm gonna enjoy my well deserved hols. public holidays, thats the best thing for being a multi-racial and religious country!

11-03-08` school holidays

i am back. shall update later when i have the time.

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school holidays. freaky pissed off answering the calls. every patient i will have one or two calls coming in requesting to change appt.

audit is next wk. hate it.
look on the brighter side, as quote from bian:
'even if u don't do well, its okay. they will not fire u because u are on contract.'

05-03-08` out of singapore

wont be in town from 07/03 - 09/03.

please leave a message if u miss me!

till then :)

03-03-08` dam the aircon

it was 4 plus to 5 into the night when my aircon went cranky.

it went on and off, on and off rapidly. beep, beep beep, beep, beep, beep beep. it was so bad that i thought my head was pressing on the remote control causing the un-rhythmic buzz.

when i turned to face it, it went quiet. it started beeping when i turn over.

first time in my.. 8 years? frreaky eerie.

please please let me sleep through the night for as long as i live. *praying hard.

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i am having problems with my back again. my spine to be exact. the occupational hazzard of bending over little kiddies (i have already asked them to open their mouths repeatedly for n times yet did nothing much) caused my already 'curved' spine to deteriorate.

my spine is curved towards the left in the mid spinal portion. this could be due to the jumpings, or traditional thai massage as we called when we're young, from my brother (who is overweight at that point of time) onto the 'used to 24kg' body of mine.

its hurting kinda bad. at times when i am stretching to disinfect the unit, i can sense sharp sparkling sensation from my spine to its peripheral nerves.

there's a spinal posture clinic located at Bishan. i think i need to make a trip down to the specialists.

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bian got his appt for his wisdom teeth surgery. he's going under GA (sleeping). though i'm a dental personal, i can't help but worry despite what i have always said 'safe' to other patients.

i shall take leave to accompany him through this physical and mental ordeal.

and following that i have to take another 1/2 day leave for my class 3 basic theory. i can sense an impending doom awaits me, thats leong.