3-12-07`

this has worn me out entirely. i am suprised how fast i recover from the upset mode. inspiration from 'whatever'.

yups, whatever.

there are bound to be people who dislike / detest / hate u to core; and people who will bring u up. i am glad my supporters are around.

accept the fact and u will feel better.

no point arguing over the accusations made. if u have the impression that i am a cheap, arrogant person, so be it. it is a fixed image in you, no matter what i say its fruitle.

i would be lying if i say i wasn't mentally traumatised when i came to knew how others thought of me. i was. then it came to me, when did cheap and arrogant goes together? hmms.. i think i am more arrogant than cheap. haha

i am not a saint, neither am i perfect. flaws are flaws. they can only be polished and forgiven by the generous.

i will remain as neutral. if u think i will be using voodoo doll, smacking paper man, please throw the ideas away.

i have to learn to accept other's comments and not retaliate. that beats getting edgy and defensive over defamations.

i have to be stronger. to stand, for those who love me.

thanks jing for being there for me. one who volunteers to listen to another's grouses in the late night means a great deal to me.