11-10-07` mc

on mc today. the mental wear is greater than the physical. i stepped on the brake and decided not to go to work when i am outside the school. insane thought that is but the strength of reluctance is really strong.

have been putting on weight. those midnight supper and impromptu meals have indeed served well in building the fat colonies in my tummy.

how i yearn to gather that fighting spirit to put on my tracking shoes again.

the little pastel green gadget will be my motivation. having music in my ears will certainly give a boost of discipline in me.

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we paid full balance for the trip to Bintan on saturday for the coming saturday. the confirmation of availability of hotel room is only made known to us on wednesday when we personally went down and sat in front of the staff.

no updates were given through the 4 days of pain striking wait. talking about responsibility and customer service, its certainly not up to mark.

the reason they quoted is the hari raya event held at Bintan and hence the resorts were fully booked. craps.

we shall find other alternatives.

or i shall waste 1/10 of my entitlement of leaves.