31-07-07` emoo

u came into the picture. again.

disturbances.

fcuk.

u are one bastard.

22-07-07` random

i have a stronger bond with my family now. reason being i am spending more time with them. the weekends which i used to burn on dates. brother and his girlfriend are not at home now, this contributes to my importance in the family. though i get irritated by the rattlings and naggings pretty easily, the warmth of family does touch my heart.

i have always wanted to do a poll, to find out how others think i am.

"do i appear to be strong?"

"am i a good listener? a good advisor?"

i am not.

i came to realise i play the part of listener more compared to throwing out my sorrows.

i have the mentality that i shouldn't trouble others with my troubles. thats why if u have noticed, i seldom touch on the issues on personal relations. i hastily cut the chase and put a full stop. period.

and because no one notices, i just laugh it off and continue my role as a listener, entertainer.

people gets drifted away. people gets busy. who will sit down and listen to your story? its a cruel truth.

what does the water in my eyes symbolise?

i am no saint. i need a shoulder.

tired.

good night, world.

14-07-07` photos galore! prom night of dental hygiene and therapy cohort 04.

i wasn't naked. this is what happens when u try to take a photo with ur camera phone - u can't adjust where the picture fits!

i was worn out when i took these pictures when i reached home. my energy span is only to that of one bar and my body was emitting the 'battery low' signal.

okays, after a week, finally the pics are up. oh ya and the story as well.

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the committee is supposed to reach Singapore Recreation Club at 5.30, an hour eariler to usher the guests.

i took a cab from my house, picked joyce up. when i stepped into the lift, a little girl went 'WOW!'. this is SO embarrassing. X( and it drizzles while i was waiting for the cab. urghs.

the balcony of the boardroom.

this is the lil balcony, an extension to the boardroom where we partied. the HPB staff came on time (mrs teo was the first), followed by nyp and ndc guests.

if u had notice, joyce (hky) at the extreme left is taking this photo. however the pics in that camera 'died' and i was surprised that we were caught by another camera somewhere!

tyb, lpq, thm, me and hky. there, i always think tyb has the BEST figure of DT0401! photo proves everything!

ms tan has kindly sent this pic to us using the valuemail. opps, though its an official mail channel for work.

i was really thankful to mastura who lent me her brooch! saw the silver round thing? thats the trick to hold my slipping dress! i was pulling the gown all night until i put that on.

with dr kelvin koh poh leong (orthodontist-to-be, mr braces) in the "cady style".

the mascot of the night! featuring marilyn and hky, angel VS devil!

the games!

gestures. each table sent 2 representives and the rest of the team mates have to guess the word with their actions.

i'm proud of our 2 scholars who demonstrates excellent teamwork and we managed to get 9 correct answers within 30 seconds. look at lpq! she's GOOD man! we were rewarded with a carton of 'whatever' and anything' :)

the norminees of the 'best dressed'

abrojibanu - the lady in white

dr koh chu guan - the indian man

lpq - girl with an extra canine

chl - sexy lady in long black dress

illiyas - the only guy in class who bothers to dress up. he is quite handsome tonight

thanks to huiping who took this pic. finally i feel that all my joggings are worthwhile. lol

the results! banu and yas went in PK round with a tie of 11 stars. with an indian dance and 'majulah singapura' he was crowned the 'best dress'! definately deserves the title!

the group photos!

the whole lot of DTs.

together with the hpb staff. our smiles gone stiff with the rounds of photo shootings due to the long queue of cameras.

from left, mrs teo, ms teo hua yin, ms tan, dr yong, dr chang.

now the ndc people.

from left, dr chang kok ming (the most generous dr who gives 5/5), dr marianne ong, dr koh chu guan.

alas, the nyp lecturers.

from left, dr koh pl, ms chia mui kiu, dr hema, dr clara mok, mrs quek.

17-07-07` sprained my ankle

i sprained my ankle while i was taking the stairs down in primary school.

my mind was preoccupied and i missed a step.

super duper embarassing when a class of kiddies is less than a metre away, witnessing the entire mishap.

it feels like bruised pig's trotter with the edema. it swells up. i have to limp.

**
i lost most of the prom photos. can't be helped or beyond my control since its not my camera.

shall sieve out the remaining pictures from the loads of digitals contributed by my classmates.

13-07-07` friday the thirteen

i was telling jing how tight her prom dress was for me!

just when i thought i had slim down from all the joggings since the start of the week, this tragic fact has unmercilessly burst my hope bubble.

face it, i am meaty.

how am i not when i eat and sit everyday. my legs aren't moving except occasion tapping of my feet on the foot pedal.

**

friday the thirteen, the day when things go hay-wired. to round this 'series of unfortunate events' up, my work was delayed and pretty up screwed up with duplicate records due to system breakdown.

i was pinning my hopes on the twelve, the day of the payroll. but it didnt roll into my account or rather all the new DTs of my batch. not prorated, not even a cent for the past 2 weeks we have worked. c'mon, how do u expect us to work without giving us the basic fuels? we do need transportations (since u have sent us to schools that is not within the walking distance), feed our mouths for this month.

not a cheap labour. i am a 'free labour' for this month.

the next day my id tells me to destroy all the teeth in the kiddies mouth to avenge for the ill treatment. i am glad that my superego put all that instanous crazy thoughts to a halt.

it ruined all the plans i have worked out. esp my prom. this inevitably calls for an emergency backup plan, which i am still scratching my head to find the alternatives.

i can sense my enthuciasim level for prom grew weak.

11-07-07` dreading as a DT

i am losing it. only a week into my 2 years will-be career and i'm dreading it.

phobia may be a better term to describe it.

doing something u knew u don't like yet u HAVE to.

an analogy - u have spent the last penny in ur pouch for the rest of the week for a can of campbell soup, only to find out that it has passed its expiry date.

no PR pretences, awfully tired for that.

i cannot stand children with attitude. "GOD ALMIGHTY" attitude - you peasants shall bow in presence of me and i shall receive nothing but painless dental treatment from you.

with an authority figuring pin-pointing your mistakes, sense of worthlessness deepens as days go by. scrimp and save for the government? with that pittance of salary, the psychological balance is just off.

i am creating sins. yes, i might be killing or potentially endangering the life of hundreds of teeth.

i am unhappy.

04-07-07` Pre-Graduation Syndrome

Pre-Graduation Syndrome:

when you,

• start putting your graduation gown on the day before the ceremony.


• taking photos like never in life


• drag mom into the photo-shooting!
  

formal

when its my mom controlling the camera

i love this pic the most. have a warm feeling inside me. (:

01-07-07`

consulted my cousin who is an optometry graduate from SP regarding my case, of course in the light of shortening my 'sentence'.

he said i can try putting the contacts and see if i experience any discomfort. if there is, the membrane is probably not healing well and it will flare up.

feeling pretty much okay now, i decided to take the risk.


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people are fragile these days. emotional kills when one resign to fate..

"Humpty Dumpty sat on the wall, Humpty Dumpty had a great fall.."