27/07/06` disappointment

gathered all my courage to find out something that i wished to know but avoid doing so. like a thief turning himself to the police.
FEAR. PHOBIA.

despite the mental preparation i had mustered, the feeling of being shot by an anaesthetic gun is so vivid; the world turned black and swirled into the screen i had been staring for the past 5 minutes. blanked; gears in brain prompt me to get a reaction.

the same old feeling as the one i laid my eyes on my o levels result slip.

hoped that u'll be the one to break the curse. the theory which i always think is right. but promises that once looks so real are so fragile. PROVEN creatures from mars cant be trusted.