14-06-06` shoppingg!

anybody ever has the urge to buy something, just to spend money despite the fact that u're near to penniless? yupps, this happens to me. TODAY. perhaps its due to prolonged suppression of spending that it results in the overwhelm desire to splurge as u start thinking 'why am i making myself so miserable keeping money when its meant to be spent anyway? so heck with it, i need instant-happiness, remorseful time later please.' oh, reminds me the theory of id (primitive demands) overcoming ego (reality principle) and superego (internal parent guiding actions based on moral grounds).

over exceeding my budget. my heart sank when i saw the digits on the screen. yes, this is the remorseful time. i shall give myself a minute of silence and face the wall to reflect on what i have done. my ego and superego finally works.

i need an income. and fast. before my regrets settle in when june comes.