2-11-05` PART II - the departure

was watching 'yong bao ming tian'
there was this departure scene of xiangxiang. and then soon will be spiderman turn. like what they mentioned, it feels really bad to depart with someone who is close to you though the 2 of you arent in family relation. this calls for my tears.
it immediately strikes me that its such a coincidental that he's leaving today too. another departure.
its gonna be a 21 days without msgs or calls. esp in this period when i'm most free after the exams. a tour is essential then to keep my mind off track.
my phone will be so 'dead'. there isnt much use for a phone. i'm used to recieving calls, msgs at particular timings that it feels weird to break the cycle. i'm used to turning my head back while using com to check for msgs; i'm used to see the green light shining; and yes now, at this particular time. but there wont be that green light there anymore.
its a subconscious habit, dependence, reliance. and i aint as strong as i tot i would be.

focus pocus.