03-09-05` 1st patient - ndc . hagen b'day party

had my 1st patient today. last wk mine PFA. while others already knows what to do, i'm still huh-huhing ard. make him waited for 20-30 mins, feel so guilty! my pt is a v nice guy, wad to do, he's having the same surname as i, 400 yrs ago tong shi yi jia ren. hehs! so rare to find one who bear the same surname as mine (even in chinese!) did E&D only. not enough time to do scaling and polishing. its kinda disappointing for him. its obvious that he's suffering pain in slient. can see the ouching-ing expressions frm his eyes. and i realise one thing - i dunno how to measure recession. dumbo! subjective to ppl when differentiating the yellow-s of cementum and enamel.

dismissed at 2. needa rush down to cineleisure for hagen thingy at 3. me and mas were the last 2 to finish so cant blame anyone else for dragging the time expt myself. haas. its like a big event, ppl crowding the entrance with lots of ah-lian-look-alikes. fans of his are mostly lil girls abt my age and younger. scardy. i had the tot of turning back home, hees, but i told myself not to waste the cab fare n luckily i drag ying along. someone to malu with me if anything goes wrong. didnt know must bring a present along (wanted to get one but was pressing for time), n the organiser - leader of the fanclub says must give him a red packet. *pengz.. so i put in 10 bucks. we were hoping that she forgot, and yeappie our wish came true. silver and darryl were there as well. hmms.. did i foresee a triangle? lols. hagen really shuai shuai SHUAI! haas.. joyce and pq shud understand my craze for him through last experience. stacy - sly lil sis was there too! hees, and much to our expectations, sly came! to pick up his sis i guess. for an instant, he created a havoc within the crowds and seems to snatch the limelight frm hagen. ppl were squeezing and screaming just to get his autographs. and oh gosh, i saw peifen! was siam-ing terribly to avoid being caught by her. later she start cursing or flaunt her love for hagen in either way i cant guarantee where my fist would land!
like most b'days, hagen was asked to make 3 wishes, of which 2 must reveal to everyone and one, keep in the heart. the 1st he wished that his family and all his friends, fans happiness. 2nd to be able sing and work with the girl whom he loves in his next album. 3rd - ... dotz dotz dotz. but very much later he said 'i hope music companies will give silver a singing contract and we'll be able to work tgt' well, isnt that obvious every0ne?
hmms.. its a good thing for him but somehow i felt sour. i cant force myself to say 'congratulations' still.. its against my principle to like one who already had someone else in mind. haas, i need to draw a clear line b/w idolise and affections. the biggest regret is not taking a photo with him. aww... =(
he spur me to slim down, then be someone BIG. till then, he'll notice me bahz. lols! *dreammie