Fight G Tears on blue mat

Teared on the mat. Bruised and swollen right ankle from the sparring 2 days ago. Session today just made it worse. My right leg is crippled from all the bruising, I had to limp.

Taken down by Vinson.

Thanks Pal for the ice-pack (cold drink), Vinson for attending to my pig trotter.

I’m ashamed. Sigh.

Avoidance

Not to see, hear, find or try to know anything about E.

This is the best way to let it go.

I hope by my birthday next year, I can be proud to say I’m over him totally.

Delete and clear every connection with him. There isn’t a need to stay in contact. Till then, I’ll be strong.

Fight G Muay Thai Elbow

Elbow class

Jab - cross - L hook - cross - R knee

Jab - cross - L bouncing hook (missed) - L 6-12 elbow (backwards drawing up) - R vertical elbow - L horizontal elbow - R knee

No Netflix, no FB, no IG

His first post on IG, I wonder what it is.

No more Netflix. No profile display on FB. He’s bent on kicking me out of his life.

Frequent activity on Telegram for the past week,

Last seen:
5/5 Sun 4:25pm
9/5 Thu
11/5 Sat 12pm, 2:45pm
It came to me how I started chatting with him on telegram. Passcode and digression from C. A strategy, once too familiar.

I know I shouldn’t be bothered.
I know all of these is none of my business.
I know I’m trapping myself in an endless loop, again.
I know I’m losing it.
I wished I can be nonchalant.
Please, if my prayers can be heard, get him out of my head. Let him go, let me go.

不再看 不再盼
不再听 不再知
才是对自己最仁慈

Sunday nap time

I’ve been too active going out on weekends. I ought to have a stay home Sunday to catch up on my afternoon naps. My body is showing signs of fatigue and I’m slowing down despite I’m pushing myself hard.

Growing appetite. I’m losing it.

Trying very hard to pretend to be happy.

I’m binging when I’m unhappy.

I’m seeing my weight going up.

Discipline.