31-05-2010` Meltdown iPhone

ITs official. My phone is ill. It was a full charge last night and in the morning, it went totally dead and felt incredibly warm. I should have seen it coming when the signs and symptoms appear with the extremely low battery span and the heat its generating when its at rest whenever I fished it up from my bag.

I'm lost. I have tied myself with a 2 year contract with teleco company just to have the phone and now, I'm flustering, putting myself through the mental grill of 'What am I gonna do IF my phone cannot make it through?'

The final blow to CHL final meltdown.

I want to shut myself away, from everyone.

I want to get MC and not going to work.

I want the tranquility in me.

I want to stay sane.

I want to live life, for myself.

EMO Elmo

26-05-2010' bridal car!

I wish to have an SLK 200 for bridal car!

24-05-2010` Retainers

Will be on Essix Retainers for 3 years. To clock 8 hours of wear at night.

I'm so paranoid of the possible rebounce of the lower that I'm trying to wear in the day as well. Though its not recommended cos my teeth will be reliant on the appliance and not able to achieve the equilibrium. I tend to snack frequent in the day so removing the retainers is sucha chore! Its high time to train myself to curb stuffing myself with food!

On 15% Opalescence Whitening as well. The anterior Cl V filling is showing marginal discolouration which causes much distress! Shall wait for 2 weeks when the whitening effects kicks in and the shade becomes stablized before commencing on re-doing the filling.

Retainers hurts. You would be surprise to know that the conventional metal doesn't hurt as badly, except for the inital phase.

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And, I've put on 2kg. On the verge of pulling my hair when the scale reads 52. Good food and no workout. I deserve it.

20-05-2010` SOFT SPOT

Everyone will have a 'soft spot' for a particular someone. No matter how time transcends, the person will forever holds great importance to you.

14-05-2010` Raid TW, HK

Survived Taiwan, Hong Kong! I'm in love with travelling alone. The downside of course, is to troubleshoot all the problems encountered solely by myself. I had lost my way a couple of times, almost miss my flights, running low on funds thats reduce to depend on my feet instead of cab.

I would still want to travel alone. AWESOME!

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Retracing my steps, I was worried about the emotional baggage that would come along. Wasn't affected much, though deeply I'm aware I'm still living under his shadows. I am looking for someone, like him, perhaps a replacement for him? When will I ever pull myself out of this rut?

Smile cos I have bigger issues ahead of me. I'll walk through this recovery path.

04-05-2010' goodbye ah ma

Goodbye grandma. In peace and loving memories.

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I'll be in Hong Kong tomorrow at this very same time. Then to Taipei. A trip which isn't well prepared. I'm feeling a little lost. Was anticipating for months but the recent workload and funeral has taken a great toll on me.

01-05-2010` Grieving

Grieving for loss. It upsets me how sad my father was. To see the strong and respectable figure in the household to tear is simply unbearable.

Was in a turmoil. Everything collides and you're forced to make a decision, when you knew in your heart, you don't have alternatives because of your obligations.

Obligations as a granddaughter, daughter, girl-friend, friend, Hygienist, employee.

There's things I ought to do, and things I wanted to do. Conflict of interest, how?

I have to defer my trip. If spending extra $365 will settle the unease and fulfill my filial duties, yes it'd be well spent. Undeniably, my heart will ache when the bill comes.

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The ending of life brings another person into mine?