27-11-2008` about me

Maybe you don't know me enough, maybe you do. This post is about me (reminds me of a kindergartener/primary school kiddy writing a composition) and how well you understands me.

I like things planned, even if things don't exactly go the way I wished, at least I have a frame of mind how things would go.

I am a practical person, and like to be efficient. I don't like to mop around when faced in a challenge. Often we'll get remarks like, 'Why do we have to do this? This is so difficult!' What I'd say is 'Lets get it done.' No point sulking away what we cannot change. Why not do something that would help in the situation. It would be a big 'NO NO' if you were to ask me to go for an overseas trip without an itinerary, but fully based on instincts and a map.

You might see me roar when I see things aren't moving, like a big group who cannot decide on where to go, what to do.

When I join sprees, I make sure the payment is in even if it takes me to wake up one early morning in PJ to get to an ATM machine. Before you go 'wows!', its because I don't want to have regrets if my order wasn't taken, or the inconvenience imposed on the organiser who had kindly bao-ga-liao all the ordering issues and tying up loose ends.

However I do not have leadership properties for one you will need good PR skills (people will listen to you).

Please, if I get impatient with you, do pardon me. I just like things to be done in a fast and suave manner.

25-11-2008` grumbling mood

There are these days when you just feel like grumbling all the mistreats life has been to you.

I hate being instructed by the top to give feedback. Wait, aren't feedback supposed to be personal? My feedback on a recent course was rejected twice because I missed out typing the 'date' which is, duh, insignificant. Tell me the meaning of 'Democracy', when she tailored what her subordinates think to her ideal during apprasial. Even thoughts of learning new techniques and handling other materials were brushed off easily as 'out of my scope' (yes, how true when we can start doing when we're outside.) Anything considered 'potentially damaging' are screened off, making a false sense of everyone working like a happy family under her control. Do a random anonymous survey of her popularity and you can start counting the number of people who crook their mouth/ frown/ twitch their eyebrows/ shake their heads.

Phew, I'm done and snapped out of it a little.

23-11-08` erosshop

visit erosshop.blogspot.com

I'm tempted to buy. Are you?

21-11-2008` NDS lite

Have been maximising my leisure time during the lull period.

Completed 'Legend of Zelda - Phamtom of Hour' on NDS. I remembered how pissed off I am when I was 'trapped' in the game. How would one interpret to transfer a map from the top screen to the bottom is to 'clamp' the console together!? I almost threw the console on the floor and step all over it like a 3 year old. I wasn't a genius to the solution - I became frustrated enough to simply close it together and thats how I indeliberately solve the riddle.

Yes, this is how interactive Nintendo DS is. Either you get a great deal of satisfaction or you will go crazy cursing the game.

Upon reflection, I'm used to this slow paced workflow, not doing anything deserving. That well means I'll drop dead when it comes to January.

I'm glad at least I'm able to reflect on this point. HAHA.

18-11-08` Negotiation and Assertiveness Course

Life has been pretty mundane. Routine rather.

Attended Negotiation and assertiveness course for the past 2 days. I was told to be able to learn bargaining skills which I am still wondering if what I've learnt like 'empathy' applies? Isn't weird if you say "Auntie ah, I understand you had a long day and its not an easy job to tender the stall. May I suggest that you cut 50% off the tag and I shall help to clear your stock?" I would probably get a kick on my butt or hauled a verbal abuse.

My tablemates were primarily filled with my x-classmates. It reminds me of past lectures and how much I, or 'we' were so close to dozing off. Yes, I was this close to activate hibernate.

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I was inspired after seeing hky's wishlist for her birthday. Thickskinned as I am, I shall be realistic and put one up too. HAHA!

10.11.08` busy weekend

a busy weekend has passed and i'm glad to survive through.

back to back are post-work activities at padang that caused us much resentment, orientation day on sat morning, perio talk on sunday afternoon. it has robbed away my time and drained the life in me.

so now i am waking up on a monday morning scornfully.

and this week is gonna be packed, too, with post-work makans. well, it should be more fun when it involves food.

05-11-08` The Fallen

Fall, Fell, Fallen. There is another meaning attached to 'The Fallen'.

I was having fever last night. The tears were warm. The tears were for my fear, loneliness, more than a voluntary response in attempt to lose heat in my body. It has been some time since I cried myself to sleep. The feeling of running a temperature sucks, and knowing no one cares sucks even more.

Probably this is an enlightenment for me. A blessing in disguise? I don't know.

02-11-08` character building

i'm back from a gathering with tuck wei and co in celebration of suan jie's (aka 'ah boy') at Aranda.

There isn't much physical changes but you sure can sense the awkwardness from 'it had been years since I last saw you!'

I need to build on my character- be more tactful please! This doesn't rightfully sound convincing cos I'm due for bedtime and I'm just blubbering what came to mind, reflection shall be done tomorrow.