30-05-08` cross stitch

after bring pricked a thousand times, i finally completed my cross-stitch for bian! for the past 3 days, i have been a workaholic to this piece of cloth, showering it with utmost TLC.

a few spots not well done and the alignment of the words is off. hey, hear my reason, its because the words shown on the box and the instruction guide is totally different so i have to use my instinct to guess the spots! and this goes to tell i'm a very 'right hand side' person. haha.


its supposed to be displayed in a pink clear box in heart shape but i forgot to take the picture of it being place inside the box so people, please use some imagination! and please sway your eyes away from the numbers, u're not supposed to look at my handphone bill!


a full D.I.Y present, completed by wrapping with magazine and secured with a brown ribbon plus 2 paper roses. (i bet guys don't appreciate roses like we do, but heh~)

we went to marina square in search of the new radio for my clinic and we caught these cute creatures by chance!

POKEMON! its the diamond and pearl edition (stated on the background).

interactions with the kiddos on the floor with the bouncy balls!


its another one! i didn't realised how much i love the pokemons until now.


see! pikachu is of the size of the lady! so i conclude that u need a certain height in order to be 'inside' pikachu.

yups, thats about it. hope you are entertained!

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more 21st birthdays coming up, lets make some noise! yay!

27-05-08` boredom

bored. low lying period. guess the same goes for other staff.

was doing my personal things, including the post here.

pain at my joint on the right hand; at my backbone.

i realised i am not able to stand for hours, it pales in comparison to my younger days. at times, the backache is too much to bare. with difficulties in walking, shopping spree is not my forte now. even a simple task of sitting on the toilet bowl causes great ordeal in lumba region.

spine - one of my deepest regrets. do not try 'thai massage' with your brother with him jumping up and down on your back. it is clear that the obese kid will jepordise the spinal development of the grossly malnourished junior.

19-05-08` diarrhea-ing

have been having diarrhea these days.

it seems like whenever i ate those 'unhealthy food' namely, fried and stuff, my tummy will just sense, immediately categorize them as junk food and sent me running toilet.

shit.

yes, i need to shit now.

16-05-08` accuracy of death

Accuracy of death.

watched as a midnight show. this film proves its worth. a very clever plot and i was marvelled by the script writer, totally.

never in my enteries would you see me upload poster for movies. because i do not want to be a portal for advertising gimmick. i have, alas, found a film worth to be remembered. this is exceptional; to me, it has replaced 'death note', my number one.

15-05-08` to hui jin!

HUI JIN,

I LOVE YOU!

haha!

am i becoming lesbian?

here's the confession.

it has been like 8 years since we're together? HA. it hasn't been easy with all the 'friending and unfriending you' from secondary school; perceptual conflicts; time management, blahs. but our 'love' has conquered all!

you're still my best-est friend no matter how time and environment changes, or in each and every period of life.

you are the one whom i will go for when i am uncertain of myself, need a listening ear or a comfy shoulder to lean on. you knew my darkest secrets but i know they are safe in your hands.

because i know that you know that i need you; and you know that i know that you'll be there.

you are a very very important to many people and they revolve around you.

and yes, WE LOVE YOU!

13-05-08` mc

easily irritable.

on mc. my senior told me the kid whom i treated yesterday is diagnosed with HFMD. alah bless.

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stitch glitch.

12-05-08` identification crisis

extracted from psychology and behavioural science lesson, what i was going through is a stage of identification crisis.

the variation between how others perceive me and how i think of myself to others. i aren't an optimist to begin with, plus the whole hormonal doubled the impact.

though i still not ready to step out of the circle, my thoughts are much clearer now.

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my sleep debt has been building up or to say the physical (which is impossible with me sitting all day long), and mental activities have terribly exhaust me. i slept 10 hours and an additional 1.5 hours for nap on sunday. i was awed by my sleeping capacity, but more amused by how tired i am still.

i have been yawning my day off at work. i need a good sleep / nap.

11-05-08` blues

have been working hard these days despite the supposed low lying period. i am having another occupational hazzard rather than the usual hearing problem that the rest of the comrades faced. pain in the left thumb tendon. i was pressing the palm of my hand and the pain caught me unaware. GOSH.

worked hard and played hard. but there isn't any time for personal rejunenvation. i felt so lethargic, especially towards the full working days ahead in the june holidays. as i see the upcoming appointments, i think i will be insane and dread going to work more.

lie low. thats what i'm gonna do. and when i'm mentally exhausted, doctor here i come..

10-05-08` jing's belated 21st birthday!

we went bugis, ajisan ramen for dinner. we had our usual catching up, gossips, crap talks.

candid. i like to catch people when they are least prepared. its so natural!

save joe the explaination. he didn't push our dear jing's head, its a mere act of trying to block her face and the 2-dimensional picture did him unjustice.

we bumped into maine! she later became the star of the light when everyone tries to take photo with her. finding similiarity? yups, the length of our hair!

we finally gave the presents to jing and reporter ling took pictures of the moment of truth.

i can sense the warmth in her heart when she first read this. can u feel it too? haha!

this is the first present! she went into deep thoughts then burst out laughing "HOW AM I GOING TO CARRY TO SCHOOL!? MY CLIQUE, JUN WEN, HAS AN IDENTICAL ONE!" and u bet this question hovers minutes later and i think probably will be till the rumours tide down.

jing automatically knew we would want her to pose, kindly strike us a nice position for us to take photos. well-done jing! (P.S: please look at tuck wei! he and his evil grin. hahas, he picked the design and he's so proud of his taste!)

we went to TOPONE for ktv. it has been quite some time since we hog the mike. the song we were singing? 'liu xing yu' by F4. those were the days.. we carried on the tradition of singing phrases by our favorite - miao - zaizai, jing - ken zhu, ying - vanness, me - jerry. (and of cos, not a single word like the original singer.)

yeaps, we had fun!

07-05-08` PMS

its complicated. i am not able to comprehend. emotions?

perceptual image and actual self? e.g. i am a quiet person? hmms..

PMS

06-05-08` new environment. will it be the same?

it had been a hard time convincing you. i don't know how i managed to convince myself to be able to smile the way through despite the fact i know that decision may, in future, potentially damaging to our relationship.

'its for your own good' and 'lets not be your burden'. ya, i can only rely on these 2 phrases to keep my lies going.

most of the time i went blank. daze. not totally switched off. like in standby mode, running the computer on but monitor off. the mind is working while i do not know what exactly i am thinking. occasionally when nature is good to me, it will prompt me this, 'are things going to be the same?'. i know straight away it is that which is bothering me.

you have sensed my distress but i brushed it off with a change in attitude.

life is a circle. it goes all down to making the choice again - love or career.

i have the phobia, that the circle will repeat itself.

'don't force me to say, you know the answer.'


its not that i don't trust you, its that i don't trust the game of life i am playing. for once i know i cannot afford to lose the stakes.

"are things going to be the same again?"

behind closed doors, i let the tears roam.

04-05-08` hair colours?

i'm having more white hairs. grrs..

bian is thinking of dying a brown highlight against a dark brown base for me. though i would love to have red highlights. it is difficult to keep within the acceptance of my company. restriction, limitations, etc etc etc. as long as people dont go finger pointing and asking the people next to them "like this can meh?", i should be quite safe.

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kindy talks stretch over the next 2 weeks. the sessions were spilt becos of the recent hand-foot-mouth disease. have to make more trips. :(

i don't know, but kids are getting on my nerves.