31-03-06`

flunk it. the expectations discrepency of the before and after wasnt that great, so the punch wasnt in full strength that will set me down. i can still manage to smile despite the pain. i did stand for my views but uni-voice cant do much. should i be firm with my stand in the first place? no. it'll make matter worse but if i were to make the last struggle, maybe i can save myself.

finally found a GUY who floss daily! his gingival are just the right pink colour in the textbk. that chap is funny. lols

23-03-06`

i hate mirrors. still.
this is the longest length my hair had grown. unmanageable but lets keep it that way.

23-2-03-06` for ah tan

21/3 is the day xiao weiwei was born! ekks.. ah tan sounds nicer. hehs :P sabo-ed her with powder, cake. the mvp of the day was mary and joyce. mary simply push tan's head down that dive it straight into the cake. her face kenna cream and the cake is now decorated with fine cream patterns of her hair. joyce slash the cake knife covered all with CREAM at her face. shish!piak piak piak!! haas. i played the carrefare role of bringing in the show by pouring a cup of powder on her thats all. how angelic compared to what she did to me on my birthday! the part i like most is when the familiar whiff of 'whipped-cream-&-co' from ah tan whenever she's near. she had gotten what she'd done on me! WAHAHA! the only difference is that she was sitting there, willingly to let us do whatever we want - throw cake, throw cream, throw powder while i siam when they try to do anything funny.

busy busy busy these days. the sem is to an end soon. gonna be our final yr. time flies.

17-03-05` morning stomachache.

its 8.05 now. the time when u'll see me online just like any day of this week. in fact u can see almost my whole class online. a whole list of them. hees. but we arent having any computer class today so why am i here at this time when i can happily crawl up late!? the ans = stomachache. after giving myself a free basic DIY E&D (caters to the anterior teeth only), i found a dark spot hovers the mes of 22. initial demineralisation. retribution for not flossing daily. :( so i just grabbed my toothpaste and apply on the tooth surface. no topical fluoride at home so might as well make use of the available resource. minutes after that i had a stomachache. could it be due to the fluoride - the effect of ingesting (quite a bit) before meal? hahas. come to think of it, we do take in a lil fluoride when we're brushing in the day. first thing in the morning so that shouldnt be the cause. perhaps i'm just paranoid and demonstrate regression here - attribute the cause to another source.

15-03-06`

i guess you won't read this unless something bad happened.
how i hope you can attend to these small little things that i encounter and share my experiences with you.
but no.
i've came up with a conclusion.
- its a only a habit. all i have to do is break the monotomy. gimme time.
i think i can pick myself up from the point i fell. and walk the journey.. alone.

i used to have this friend who will go ga-ga over the guys whoever any of my gang members like.
I DETEST SUCH ATTITUTES
what is she trying to show? capable of turning the guy WHOM U LIKE, to like her more? showing that she is more popular or seductive? OMG! thats just so so sooooo unethinical. don't you agree?
imagine one day you happily broadcast to your BEST friends, for the fact because they are your BEST friends, admitting that u have this HUGE crash on this someone and the very next day you found your BEST friend hooking up with this VERY SAME guy. its like going to the ROM with the guy you love but being messed up by your best friend who reveal that she had an affair with your potential / husband-to-be.

for all the man in this world - be it the guy's classmates, friends, best friends, neighbours, cousins, or even UNCLES, pls! why cant you choose someone else? perhaps you have too much of the 'while stock last' idea installled in your brain.

if you like this to happen to you, do continue. you will end up with no BEST friend cos' u simply prove u cant be one. please reflect on your behaviours. i really do mean REFLECTIONS. FACE THE WALL and use your brain to process the information.

defination of thrill - excitement + danger.
yes, that's how we feel when we try to sneak into blogger and get this blog done up. wahaha. practically risking our lives with the contract of 'the bond'. 900 bucks is all i have for a month's livelihood.
ran into financial crisis again these months when i try very VERY VERYYY hard to scrimp and save every penny i have. envy joyce and co whenever they can spare the 'spares' they have. since joyce also has to undergo SNB, i suggest we can crook up some contest of being 'niao'. hahas.
here we are in the training room, seeing battle between the CLONES. its hard to stay partial sandwiching between them. i help by acting like a saliva collector / saliva drainage system, prevent their saliva from getting to each other. an excellent insulator.
to my left i have joyce exhilarated all about her driving lessons and to my right weiwei demonstrated her 'flower craze' of 'you-know-who' sitting behind us FOR THE REST OF THIS WEEK.

initially can understand what mr instructor was teaching but somehow the more he trys to explain the more complicated it gets and, ta-da, i'm lost. doubt anyone can remember this much when this thing eventually activated into the fields so till then... buck up at the time!

12-03-06` her story

she loves you but she hardly notices that you're there. A new guy appears in her life and she starts thinking there's more to life than staying with you. Unfortunately, this guy makes her feel alive in a way you don't.
it was like she suddenly see light ahead of the tunnel. at this point of time having a colourful life weighs over a comfortable life in the future.
months and years down the road, she starts questioning herself why she chose a path thats full of thorns.
having to compromise, give up all the autonomy and rights to be pampered. she knows she can be happy now but not in the future. the future is bleak.
the little bickerings that she used to think are additional paint to a paper are now cracks in a porcelain. the differences she used to think are challenges to compromising are now giant concrete walls that stand tall and avid. the colours she used to think are essential at that instant are no longer as important as security.
she used to be pampered like a princess but now reduced to a submissive chambermaid.
she used to recieve without any returns but now constantly being reminded how much she had recieved and the expected output.
before asking him how much he had given you, ask yourself how much you demanded.

07-03-06` kiddies

had my first 6 year olds treating experience today. they can be either HYPERACTIVE or SILENT all the way. i got the best of both worlds. my afternoon patients each possess a different kind of personality. its quite fun (provided u dont activate their 'i-don't-want' siren). it keeps u awake as u always have this urge to keep talking to them, understand them a lil more. plus, they'll tell u who they hate, who's their best friends! lols

finally a day off tml. YEAH!!

05-03-06` the runs

had diarrhoea since thursday. x2. friday x5. especially once i had my breakfast. this got me worried whether i'll have runs all the way during ndc. so i decided, no breakfast for me in the morning as a precautionary measure.

oh no, the rumbling sounds of the tummy and s/s of diarrhoea resurface on sun. thats today. and to think that the research method test is tml morning. induced by stress?

hated to be woken up. by phone calls or whatever it might be. esp during my stress periods. can be dinosaur-ous and eat anyone up.

cannot get anything into my rusty brain. bet it must be lack of exercise to keep it rotate. needa start my jogging regime.. as long as my skin condition stabilised.

02-03-06`

take pride in your work. hope one day i can lift up my head, look at the sky and say this.

sleeping member. applies for me in r.mtd. are you?

01-03-06`

scolded by my patient "stupid" for booking appt on 1st april - april's fool. thats the earliest slot. i have other patients too.

patient management is a big hurdle to cross.

somehow u WILL perform badly infront of someone. just that y-factor that mess things up. i'm scared of the mafia aura.

01-03-06`

was scolded by my patient "stupid" for booking appt on 1st april - april's fool.

patient management is a big hurdle to cross.

somehow u WILL perform badly infront of someone. just that y-factor that mess things up. i'm scared of the mafia aura.