26-02-06`

my com is being diagnosed with "hyperventilation". it'll go into a coma when u're least expecting it. no s/s. by the time u know about it, the screen had already turns black and gives a beep like the one when u restart. in a snap of fingers, i lost the what i have typed.

death sentence and label are given based on other's judgement and influence is too much a penalty. but this will affect how others look at you as well.

24-02-06` buzzing

highly irritable these days. stress over..

may be laughing outside but behind the four walls lies a different story. the disparity irks me sometimes.

i need to scream to the sea.

23-02-06` pinning hopes

pinning hopes that that face will show up today. but no. no peek-ka-boo. that just means another week / month of waiting.

going fluoridation plant tml. excursion is always better than coping in a small k513 staring at the slides.

21-02-06` last episode

today is the last episode to NUH.
plucked up the courage and shifted our usual observing cum hiding place to the other extreme corner. its the last chance to do so.
happen to see jiaching's patient whom we've seen from the last time by marie's partner (whoops, kept forgetting his name). still remember some quotes from him "Big straw - big straw suck away your tongue", "bread story", "memorising words on the kavo lamp". maybe its this resemblance that she wanna hold onto my hands. a sign of security too. handling special needs patients indeed requires lots of patience. 'gao ren' suggested the counting game which really work wonders. open the mouth for some time and then rest. the patient even got really high that she don wanna rest! WHAOS! haha.. but once in a while when he's doing the counting, he'll ask the patient not to squeeze my hand too hard. if my hands drop we cant fix it back. lols! but seriously, its not a firm grip at all. students from hong kong dental school also came to observe unlike the normal job shadowing ppl. one of them actually took photo of us while treating- jiaching, gao ren, the patient and me (-_-") the patient got me into the picture because she was holding onto me. GOSH.. later on, he introduced himself and asked me how was it. hahas.. i was like 'ar.. its alright. beats standing around doing nothing. i feel that i'm more useful now.' he knows we're dental therapists graduating next year siahs.
hais.. never got a chance to see 'feng feifei' up front. can only peek from the sides and back. its the last chance yet i blew it. completely. aching feeling. lost my appetite during lunch. this mark into another item of my regret list.

19-02-06`

its scary to know that each nap i took will takes 3 hours. from 0900 to 1300, from 1500 to 1830 (disrupted coz someone called.)
tend to dream of this particular someone who i absolutely didnt think of in the day. for days it'd been like a theatre flashing a movie with my life revolving around him / her after i knock out. i used to have this belief that dreaming of the person 'out of the blue' is a symptom that u'll fall for the person - the linkage between dreams and reality. now i certainly hopes that it doesnt comes true for me!
had initial sore throat recently. that kind that will cause your voice to be 'mutated'. some of my OHI were taught in this mutated voice. lets pray that my patient gather the picture of what i'm trying to convey.
clinics, schools, clinics, school.. i just wanna take one day MC off. and then perhaps u can find me at sentosa beach enjoying the land breeze or on the verge of jumping down! hahas, nahs.

16-02-06

had my hair cut at RED-S. think my hairdresser was 'somebody' in the salon that she was the one who jumped out into her colleuege's rescue when a customer complained of her too 'light-coloured' hair. it cost more than when i went to the one in tm. may it be the location or the senior ranky stuff, the resultant is satisfactory though the top looks like bird's nest (not the one in a can! the one on a tree)
i spent my valentine's with joyce and peiqi at ps cafe cartel. we expected a big crowd and yes - a long queue. more couple seats were up for the loving birds while we the trio stands out completely. the staff only took orders from the duo-s in the queue, literally SKIPPED us. perhaps we just have the label on our heads - 'i am too poor to afford anything here. i am just passing by and curious why are people queuing here'
license craze is on. driving is so cool but a lil far-fetch for me.