Keeping afloat

How do you shake off the feeling of hating yourself? 

Never a crowd pleaser. The more I act for myself, the more distance I am.  How much do you stretch to ‘blend in’? 

Before you could tell your story, others write your story for you. 

I’m so tired. I’m limiting my workout to prevent a burnout. Is it helping, or going for the worst? Am I resting physically and/or mentally? Perhaps mentally I’m not. Time allows overthinking. Am I back to packing my days so I don’t have time to think? Either way it’s in for destruction.