Goodbye K

 14/6 - 17/6

I knew I was pushing myself to go Tues to Sat for Muay Thai. Ever since REVL, I haven’t been going full week on Muay Thai. Was it entirely because of hooks basics? Yes and no. I don’t know how long he’d be here for, so I tried to bump up my chances to see him and leave minimal regrets. It was 4 days. 

Friday evening sparring was the last time I saw him. He looked angsty, or maybe that’s how fighters look when they’re out in the ring. I thought he’s better from what I remembered, but when you’re facing straight up with Darryl, he makes everyone else look bad, even FW. 

No hello, no goodbye. Probably the best. At least on the surface, we are not acquainted. I don’t know what was told. I did not speak ill of him. Let’s leave it as that. It was like a passing rain, over and let’s move on. May we have peace within us. 

K in sg Jun 2022

 14th Jun 2022, Tuesday

At FightG as with any other Tuesday. Was at level 3 looking at the stairway when K walked up. We had eye contact and he looked away to say hi to someone behind. 

‘HUH? Was it him?’

I couldn’t be sure, my mind was racing through thoughts that it might be him. The Why, When, How-s. It had been long, 2 years 5 months, 3 days to be exact. 

Vinson sat beside me and asked me if I’m okay. This reaffirms that it was him. ‘When?’, ‘he was back last week. I didn’t want to tell you because I want you to manage it yourself. I think your relationship with Alfred is stable enough and this wouldn’t change anything’. 

I know I will be affected. The memories, good, bad and the aftermath, threats. 

I don’t know was it the competitive side of me that I want to show him that I’m doing well without him, the life I’m leading; happier with Alfred and the friends I made at the gym, that I’m being exceptionally outgoing this week. It feels like I’m removing my usual barrier of keeping to myself and start jesting around with others, many of whom I’m not close to begin with. Surprisingly, that propelled me to really be happier to connect to others. 

He doesn’t seemed to be affected. I don’t know. He could be hiding his emotions, like how he did when we quarreled. The difference I could draw was, previously at times he will want to avoid me and not go to the gym, compared to now, he’s back at the gym everyday despite I might be there. 

He hasn’t changed. The alpha or the boy whom you need to give in to. Call it taken granted or self-entitled. Giving way to him when we cross paths at the counter; or others to hold pads for him first. 

I am pretentious. I had to. I would not and could not allow my emotions to overtake myself. The last I want is to jeopardize the relationship with Alfred, for he was the one who pulled me out of the wreckage Kang left behind. It was a stable relationship in which I found peace. 

I doubt Kang is here for long. Probably a stopover to one of the ASEAN countries. 1 month, top. Life will be back on track as how it has been.

May he found his happiness too. 

FightG MT - Basics hook

 Jab - cross - L hook - R roundhouse - L hook - R hook -

Step back, partner comes in 

Cross - step-in L hook and back to fighting stance - cross - switch L kick 

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3 range to set up for hook

Jab - L hook - R roundhouse - cross

Jab - fake cross (mid-range) - L hook - R roundhouse - cross

Jab - R monkey block (do not turn head) - L hook - R roundhouse - cross